freaking out

At the end of my allotted painting time this week I looked at the work that had been done and noticed I did something strange. I had put a paper border around the edge of the forest, and promptly freaked out. What had I done? Why did I just spend so much time on this border? Had I ruined the painting? After calming myself done I decided that it didn't look bad, and that the painting wasn't ruined, but just headed in a direction not yet traveled by my work.
It is important to reassure myself that new is a good thing. That using different colors than normal won't make the painting awful to look at, but in the grand scheme of my work will create more diversity, and will ultimately, hopefully lead to richer paintings. Really, I should not freak out, or worry when I am unsure of the work I have just done, because in the end, even if the painting is terrible diversity is not a bad thing.

in the studio

I no longer need to work in my room because my new house has space for a studio. This is very exciting, and the difference in the amount of work I am producing has increased greatly. I feel as though a vail has lifted. It is wonderful.